Worst Luck Ever- Part II

To finish where I left off.....

Scott's job gave us the news that he would be "transferred" to a job in Iowa. He needed to be there today so he needed to leave Monday morning. I say "transferred" because I don't know how else to put it. He got lucky when Suzy was born. There was a job starting in Memphis so he got to stay at home. The whole time that we were dating, engaged, and newlyweds Scott was "on the road". Him being home the first six months of Suzy's life was just by pure chance (and God watching over me and my sanity). We found out earlier in the week that he would need to leave, but reality didn't set in until Friday night for me. I started cleaning, reorganizing, and decluttering my house. It was almost like nesting again. I was so stressed out that I would feel even more overwhelmed with a disorderly home. I am pleased to say that I got rid of a truck load of junk and have a somewhat clean house. Monday morning rolled around like clockwork and it was time to say the goodbyes. I tried extremely hard (and was very successful) not to get emotional while Scott was around. I think he tried to do the same for Suzy and I. When he said bye to us both and shared "I love yous" he was out the door. He has left for a few days at a time, but nothing like this so when the door shut and I heard his truck pull out of the drive I knew it was for real this time. Our luck had ended. It was back to being "home alone" again... only this time I wasn't alone anymore. I ,now, am blessed with a six month old. The thought still terrifies me. I am not sure that I can handle being a full time mother, special education teacher, and housekeeper. I guess only time will tell. I worry most about Scott. He is so worried that Suzy will forget him or that she will feel abandoned. I tell him he is being silly. She will never feel those things. Scott is way stronger than I could ever be. He has a job that requires him to be away from his family to provide a great life for us. I am so blessed to have him as my husband the father of my sweet Sue. When Suzy's face lights up as he comes through our door in 2 weeks it will all be worth it. Suzy and I cannot wait for him to come home again.

 As for me, I am going on day 2 of  being alone. I can say that I have had it easy the past 2 days, though. I had Memaw watch Suzy Monday morning so that I could get my mind off the situation and go do some work in my classroom. Last night was a bit difficult, but we made it through it. Today was Suzy's day at Tattle Tales so I took out some more of my frustrations on my classroom. Gigi came by to get a few things, but I think it was just to check on us :) Suzy had a nap and then we had a photoshoot. I got myself a fancy new camera and decided that today was just the day to take some photos so we could share them with Daddy! I will never hold the talent of my beloved Rachel , but I am glad that I will have a handy dandy camera to take pictures of Suzy's "daily living".

Showing off her new teeth. She is so proud of them.

Lola and Suzy both wanted in my lap.

Suzy always wants Bella. Bella never wants Suzy.

Keep Suzy and I in your prayers as we will soon face the challenge of me going back to work. I know that we will adjust and get in a routine of going to work, coming home, going for a run, getting baths, getting fed, etc.... I hope and pray that this routine comes quickly. I am blessed to have family and friends that are extremely supportive. I know that they are all just a phone call away.

I think it is time for our luck to change..... for the better, of course.