Summer Break Begins

Since Suzy was sick the first couple weeks of Summer Break we didn't get to start enjoying my time off until last week. We have had a pretty busy "break" since we have become able to get out and about. Alison and Kendal keep Suzy on Tuesdays and Thursdays so I can have time to do housework, go to Wal Mart, run errands, etc. They keep her from 10-3. I secretly love having someone to keep Suzy. I look forward to these days. I don't mean that in a negative way, but goodness gracious some alone time is nice. I do enjoy going to Wal Mart without having to cart Suzy with me. It is just such a hassle to take her places right now. I never know if she will be in a good mood or not and I just don't want to be that lady in the store with the "screaming kid".... You all know what I am talking about!

My sweet friend Jill Lamar had her second baby last Wednesday. Larry Coleman, Dana Tiner, and I went to see her and "Chevy" Thursday while Alison had Suzy. While seeing him I realized how quickly Suzy has grown up. He is just the sweetest little baby boy. He weighed 8 pounds and some odd ounces. Suzy weighted 6 lb 4 oz.... I thought he was TINY, but goodness gracious Suzy was way smaller than him. I guess I never realized just how small she was. He wanted to be all snuggled up with me and wanted me to keep him held tight. She wants to be moving constantly and does not want to be held close. She is too busy moving, pulling hair, scratching, etc. His little cry is so mild. Her BIG cry sounds like fire alarms. He was only awake about an hour and a half yesterday, Suzy was only asleep an hour and a half yesterday.... It is crazy how quickly they grow up and change.

Sweet Chevy also likes pacifiers and Suzy will have nothing to do with them. While he was in the nursery he scratched his poor little face. The scratches were completely gone the next day. Quick healer!

Tiner with sweet Chevy.

I just love little baby footsies. I had to take a photo of his little toes!

There is another bundle of joy that I am dying to meet. Monica and Walker had sweet Mason a couple Wednesdays ago, too. I have been waiting on Scott to go visit with me, but it looks like I am going to have to go alone. His work schedule is too unpredictable, we cannot make plans to get up there. I am guess it will just be a sparatic trip for Suzy and I one day next week. I cannot wait to love on him.

Suzy and I also went to eat lunch with Sally one day. We went to Kyoto. Sally and I passed SZ back and forth the whole entire lunch to keep her entertained. We didn't get to do much catching up, but it was just so nice to see her. I miss my friends so much. While we were trying to catch up Sally decided that Suzy needed to have some lemon. We just knew that Suzy was going to hate it and think it was disgusting.... We were WRONG. Suzy absolutely loved that lemon.

Suzy was excited to go see Sally, too!

When she took the lemon away from her she threw a fit! She could have eaten 5 of them I think. She was only allowed 2.

Later that afternon we went to the golf course and saw KK and Justin. KK is so kind to me and helps me keep SZ entertained.

We have been going to the golf course in the afternoons a good bit. Suzy likes to be outside and Scott likes to go play a few holes, so it just works out that we can do both things as a family a couple days a week. We really enjoy it. It is so nice to have all 3 of us happy at one time.

She is out of dress code, but I don't think anyone cared :) She usually does follow the rules of having a collar. It is just a good excuse for her to wear one of her cute little Polo outfits.

Last Saturday Gigi kept Suzy for me so that Scott and I could go do some things. Scott went to play golf with Justin and Kalon and I laid out ALL DAY LONG. We left the pool around 4:30 or so and called the boys. They still weren't finished playing and didn't like the idea of coming to get us so we could ride with them for a little bit. About 7:00 they met up with us and we went to the Oyster Bar (still wearing our bathing suits and cover ups) to have an appetizer and a few beverages..... We didn't have any plans to stay out or anything. Of course, when you look inappropriate you end up staying out all night and see everyone you know. We got home around 12:30 AM and I paid for the excursion the whole next day. I now remember why I cannot go out anymore!

Cranky Baby = Naptime

Suzy is doing much, much, much better since her battle with RSV. You cannot even tell that she was ever even sick. I am so glad that she battled through that illness like a champ. It was absolute torture on her and us.

Even though Suzy was feeling better, this outfit made me a little sick. Of course, Gigi and Pops put this little number on her while she was at their house (per Scott's request). He knows that we don't allow such at "my house". Even though she does have on an ugly little outfit she is still so super cute.

Suzy spent Saturday and half a day Sunday with her Gigi and Pops. They have tended to get her every Saturday so I can get some stuff done around the house, go to the pool, catch up with friends, etc. They give me this day to have some "Amy Time". I am so thankful for it. They just don't know what it means to me. They are awesome to Scott and I. I don't know what we would do without our families. Gigi found Suzy some golf clubs so that they could start teaching her early. Lord knows she will not be getting any good pointers in the golf area from me!

Pops was pretty excited about this little purchase. I honestly think that he is more in love with her than he ever thought he could be. He comes by most every Friday to "bring something by" or "pick something up", but I really do think that he is just making excuses to see Sweet Sue.

When SZ got back from Gigi and Pops' house she was extremely fussy and cranky. I have deducted that my approach to summer is not working out for her. She was so used to being on her schedule and very structured before I got out for summer. I thought that she was established enough in her schedule that I could relax a little. I WAS WRONG. I should have kept her on her strict schedule. I was just spending every second I could with her. We played, we went to see grandparents, went to lunch, etc.... We should have been scheduling our outings and playdates around when it was good for Suzy. Now, with this being said, we do not avoid leaving the house or cancel plans due to her schedule. But, if there is anyway for me to schedule my outings around her "lifestyle" I most definitely will. Some with argue that this is no way to live. For the people that think I am too firm or take the schedule to a bit of an extreme you are definitely granted your opinion. This schedule fits mine and Scott's lives and we all thrive on it. Different strokes for different folks, eh?!! I envy the mothers that just pick up and go and do as they please. I am not one of these. I am far too high strung and obsessive for such behaviors. I am a very scheduled person, myself, so SZ gets it honestly.

The fussiness poured over into Monday. By Monday night I was at my breaking point. She was only happy if I was holding her or I was sitting right beside her talking to her constantly. Well, all you mamas out there know that it is impossible to keep a household running and sit next to a 5 month old talking all day. She woke up at 7 AM and didn't get an ounce of sleep until 7 PM. She was extremely tired and she was taking her frustrations out on me. She pulled my hair out, scratched my face, clawed my neck, and was just plain out right being ugly to me. Scott sent me a text that day and asked how we were doing... I responded with, "She is beig absolutely terrible today". By this text in response I should have known that I needed a "breather/break". I had lost all patience and was out of ideas on what I should do to get her to sleep. I laid her in her bed several times. She cried, screamed, and basically just pitched an royal fit every time. At night, she just has to work it out herself, but during the day she usually doesn't have a problem napping. I then realized that I had to get back on a schedule and that I was going to do nothing to mess it up again. Her crankiness was all my fault. I am proud to announce that I am on the road to recovery.

I did a lot of research Monday night after she went to bed, reread the naptime section of Babywise, and did some praying. My research concluded that a baby of Suzy's age needs to be asleep 16 hours out of a 24 hour day. That seems like a lot, doesn't it?! Well, everywhere that I read said the exact hours. I kept doing my research on google and baby websites. Everyone suggested that a baby needs to go to sleep for at least 30 minutes at a time to actually get any "rest". They also say that from the time she wakes up she has 2 hours to "play" or have "wake time", then it is naptime. So, if she wakes up at 7 AM she will go back to sleep at 9 AM. I have decided that the Ferber Method is the only thing that we can do get her in a routine. The Ferber Method is also known as the "Cry It Out Method". She has been using this method for 2 days and she has figured it out already!! She is not even crying it out!! And, the point of this story.... SHE IS BACK TO MY HAPPY GIRL!!! Yay for technology and Dr. Ferber :)

This is how I found her today when I walked in her room. She really does not like clothes when she sleeps anymore. My hot natured baby is just like her mama.

Sick Sue

Suzy has been pretty sick the past few weeks. Two weekends ago we loaded up and went to the lake house thinking that she just had a cold. I had gotten a little "summer cold" and I thought I had just passed it along to her.... The weekend at the lake house was far from relaxing and normal. As you know, she has been sleeping all night since she was 5 weeks old. That weekend she didn't. She cried a lot. She was not napping well. She was just not a happy camper. When we got back to Senatobia the following Monday (Memorial Day) she had had enough of traveling, being away from home, and was just plain out right sick. She sounded like she had a smokers cough. When she started coughing she would end up throwing up from gagging. It was beginning to seem apparent to me that she had more than just a little cold. I called her pediatrician Tuesday morning hoping they would see her that day. But, of course, they didn't call me back until 4:00 that afternoon. They scheduled us an appointment for 9:00 the next morning. Memaw and I headed to Oxford with Sick Sue that morning. The doctor informed us that Suzy sounded like she could have RSV, but that she would need to do a test to be positive. Well, lo and behold.... the test came back positive. She had RSV and an ear infection. They hooked her up to a breathing treatment of albuterol. If the albuterol didn't make her sound better they were going to have to admit her into the hospital. Thank goodness she didn't have fever and still had an appetite. Those things kept us out of the hospital. I promised to follow all the doctors orders and she sent us home with a prescription for a breathing machine and 2 prescriptions. We have been doing the albuterol breathing treatments and taking amoxicillan religiously and I am pleased to say that my sweet Ella Sue is doing much better. She is back to sleeping all night and she is so much more pleasant. Although she was pretty sick, she didn't stop smiling and cooing at Scott and I. She was a trooper and a fighter.

This is what my kitchen counter looked like for an entire week. She definitely had a lot of stuff to keep up with!

- Suzy couldn't get hot while she was sick or she would end up coughing up, then gagging, then throwing up. So, we didn't get to go anywhere or go outside. I was beginning to get extremely stir crazy to say the least and I think she was too.
- I have to sterilize everything we touch to help kill the germs of the virus.
- The albuterol makes Suzy hyper, so we have to do the treatments during the times of day that will not mess her sleep schedule up.

After she fought me for a minute or two she would end up going to sleep during her treatments.

I am beyond thrilled that Suzy is feeling better. It was a very stressful and tiring two weeks. I couldn't get any rest because I was so worried that her breathing would stop or become labored and I wouldn't know it. I said many, many prayers and begged all our friends and family to pray too.

We go back to the doctor tomorrow for a check up. I am hoping that he gives us great news. She sure is acting like her old self, so I don't know why we wouldn't get great news. But, with our luck... who knows?!

This was taken 3 days after the doctor started her on antibiotics and breathing treatments. She was such a happy girl. Thank the Lord for modern technology and old school antibiotics.

Date Night

Oh what a drab day it has been. We went to sleep last night to the rain and woke up this morning to dreary, cold weather. I am not a fan of being cold, but I am less of a fan of being cold Mid-April. I am ready for the temps to start climbing back up in the 80s. I will be whining in July because I am sweating and begging for fall, but as for right now.... I want to be outside and warm! Anyway, Scott and I woke up when Suzy got up this morning at 8:00 (she went to sleep at 7:30 last night). We fixed her bottle and fruit cereal (bananas were on the menu this morning) then Scott prepared breakfast for the adults. It was delish. The three of us spent the day being lazy together. The weather was the perfect opportunity for us to stay cooped up in the house. It was quite nice though. I did get some of Suzy's pictures organized on Shutterfly and finished her "2 Month" picture book. I will admit, I am a slacker when it comes to pictures. I will take a million of them and then never get them printed out. If I am lucky enough to print them out they stay piled in my car above my visor. It is just not something that I am very good at. Suzy was a pretty happy little lady today. She played, cooed, and watched Scooby Doo with Scott and I. After her 1 o'clock feeding she laid down for a nap..... this nap lasted three and a half hours. It was lovely. While she was asleep I talked to Mimi who agreed to watch the little stinker while Scott and I went to dinner. It was an unplanned "Date Night" at the Smith Residence. Mimi had no objections to the idea since she has not seen her much due to having her little procedure earlier in the week.

While Scott finished getting dressed for our date, I had a photoshoot with SZ. She doesn't look too thrilled does she?

Suzy on her way to see Mimi this afternoon. She doesn't go far without her "baby". Mrs. Jeana Tabor from SMS gave her this sweet little monster at my school shower. She is obsessed with it. She is loving that it is easy to hold onto and that she can get it to her mouth successfully!

After we dropped Suzy off with Mimi we headed to Como to eat the Como Steakhouse. As we were pulling up I said, "Scott we are here just in time to eat with all the old folk". I should really quit referring to the elderly so often. I guess I think that I am 18 or something? We arrived to dinner at 5:30. We, of course, planned to eat at 5:30 so that it didn't interfere with Suzy's 7:30 bath/bedtime. We always like to sit at the bar when we go to Como. Not for the drinks, but because it is always way quicker to sit up there than at a table. We had a sausage and cheese  plate, salads, and I ate a few bites of Scott's steak. We had filled our bellies and were walking to the car at 6:30. For those of you that know about the Como Steakhouse know that getting a table, eating, and paying your ticket within an hour is unheard of! We planned our little journey quite nicely if I do say so myself. We then headed to pick up our sweet Suze. Mom had carried her over to her neighbors' house, Jon and Lakay. When we got out the car Lakay commented on how nice we looked (we werent' dressed up, I guess she is just used to seeing us looking like complete death or something?) and then insisted that they take a family photo of us. We agreed. I am glad that we did. We have no pictures of the three of us. The random iPhone photograph taken was actually pretty decent. Thanks J&L Photography for the lovely photo op. :)

Too bad Suzy wasn't looking at the camera. She is too busy examining my shiny shoes.

We got home just in time to put SZ in the tub and get her bedtime bottle prepared. While she was in the tub Gigi and Pops came by to see her. Gigi usually has SZ on Saturdays, but she played in a golf tournament today. She apparently missed her baby so much that they had to swing by our house on their way home. Suzy got to see them before she went to Sleepytown. Her chunky self sucked down the 6 oz bottle with 2 scoops of oatmeal in it and hasn't made a peep since. Oh I am so blessed to have a baby that likes to sleep as much as I do!! I think I too will take the opportunity of an early bedtime tonight.

The Simple Things

Usually one day per weekend I have some time “away” from my real life duties. On these off days I tend to do a bunch of very off the wall things. I should be inside cleaning house, doing laundry, reorganizing cabinets and such, but I cannot seem to do anything very productive or meaningful. I have come to love the days that I can do things for myself. I never knew how much I actually did for myself until Suzy came along. I used to just hop in the car at the drop of a hat just to go to town for a Diet Coke, but that has all changed….. for the better, of course. Scott and I were talking the other day about money (the root of all evil) and how it seemed like I hoard it these days. Hoarding is not the word for it. Not having time to go do random things like I used to do is the reasoning behind the change in finances I believe? Finances are neither here nor there, the point I am trying to make in a round about way is that I have come to appreciate the smaller things in life. Shopping, Diet Coke runs, pedicures, etc. are all things of the past and I couldn’t be more thrilled about that! Now, don’t get me wrong… I do love all those things listed above, but they just don’t come as often as they used to. Suzy’s Gigi gets her a good bit on the weekends, so that I can have a breather and so that she can spend some extra time spoiling her. Instead of our old weekend habits, we do random things like clean out flower beds?

Scott made my flower beds wider so that they were not so jumbled up! We took every single plant out of the beds and totally started over! It looks 100 times better!

A glimpse from another angle!

Cleaning flower beds is just one of the off the wall projects that we have come up with to do. Scott usually spends his time away doing things like fishing, cooking out, and socializing. Me on the other hand, I pick things to do like clean out the upstairs room to make Suzy and I a place to hang out and recover chairs? Really??..... What has happened to me?! I should be spending this time in Southaven shopping, shouldn’t I? I finally took one of the days off that I was granted and did something that was actually all for me last Saturday. Lauren and I went to Mimi’s house around 12:00 and laid out for three hours. Three hours of uninterrupted time was outstanding and being in the sun with an amazing friend was just a cherry on top! Today, Kendal picked Suzy up from Memaw’s house so I could take care of a few things that I needed to scratch off my “to do” list. I had a hair appointment at 5:00, which is one of my very favorite things to do. Instead of arriving right on time to my hair appointment I ended up showing up 45 minutes early just to catch up with everyone had have some nice “gossip time”. It was fantastic. Scott and I have also signed up to be members of Back Acres Country Club so that he can teach me how to play golf. I am so super excited about this! I have wanted to learn to play for years and he has finally agreed to teach me. When Suzy gets a bit older we will take full advantage of that lovely kiddie pool too! I am so fortunate to have family close by that will gladly ask for Suzy on the weekends. I do not know what I would do without them. I am also extremely thankful that I have (somewhat) realized that I should do simple things with my time instead of trying to things like redo my whole yard in a day. Manual labor days just make you even more tired the next day. My laid back, easy weekend and week have made me a much happier lady.

When Suzy got home Sunday her Daddy had to steal back some loving!!

Time Flies

I should be so ashamed of myself for not blogging like I should be. The past 3 months have been a whirlwind and I haven’t found the “extra” time to blog OR the computer/internet access that would have made this so much easier. We have had a Mifi and it took forever for the pictures and blogs to load so I got a little frustrated and just totally abandoned the whole thing. I am going to do much better now that we have Wifi I hope. I even went and bought a new desktop computer so that I could have my own personal little place to write posts, pay bills, upload/print pictures, etc. I am glad to finally have a little “Amy Space”!

Let me catch you up on Suzy!!! She has grown so much. It is hard to believe that that wee little baby that we brought home from the hospital has grown into such a chunky little thing. She is 14 weeks old, weighs 14 lbs, and has fat rolls all over her. Memaw still keeps Suzy while I am at work and it seems like Gigi (Scott’s mom, Linda) has her at least one night per weekend. My mom (Mimi) always has little projects going on or is going to the Lake House and cannot get her much on the weekends. I know that as soon as her schedule slows down that she will be fighting Gigi for a weekend! Mimi does get to see Suzy a lot during the week though. If 3 days have passed and she hasn’t seen her she tends to get a little whiney!

Mimi and Suzy at the Lake House over Spring Break.

Gigi and Suzy the same week!

Suzy is an absolute joy. She has been sleeping all night since I went back to work when she was 6 weeks old. Thanks to Jill Lamar I read the book Babywise and it changed our lives!! I was venting to Jill one day about how rough things were going with her crying, sleeping, feedings, etc. and Jill recommended the book. I went to her house one afternoon and picked it up. I read it in one night and started the Babywise method the next day. It was a life changing experience I assure you. The first couple days were pretty stressful and very emotional. For those of you that are not familiar with the book I will fill you in quickly (I could talk about it for days). The book just recommends that you put your baby on a schedule, stick to the schedule, and teach the baby how to “self sooth”. Well, in other words it tells you to put the baby on a schedule and let them cry the problems out themselves. Needless to say, I cried about as much as Suzy did for 3 days or so. Babywise says to feed the baby, have “awake time”, then “rest time”. Suzy picked up on everything so quickly that within a couple days she was thriving. I am now a firm believer that babies thrive on schedules. After a week of using the methods Suzy was a brand new baby. There wasn’t nearly as much crying going on, she would swing or sit in her bouncy chair, and I didn’t have to hold her constantly. It had gotten to the point that she was falling asleep on my chest and I would slowly move her to her baby bed, but the book taught me how to make that change. I feed her at night, kiss her, tell her I love her, walk out of the room and she never makes a fuss!! It is ahhhhhmazing!! She was going to sleep at 9:00 PM, but has moved her bedtime up herself to 7:30 and sleeps until I pick her up in the mornings to take her to Memaw’s house. One area that I cannot complain about is the “bedtime routine”. I recommend this book to every person that I know that has babies or is fixing to have a baby. Naptime has been a struggle because we didn’t know that she should have a scheduled naptime everyday. I guess I was too enthused about bedtime to remember what the book told me about naps. I picked up the book again and reread the chapter on naps and that is getting much better now that I have some knowledge on how to implement them.

This is Suzy’s schedule as of right now (when she starts teething things may become a bit different, so I don’t want to get too attached to it):

6:30 AM- I wake Suzy up to change her diaper and we head to Memaw’s

7:00- Feeding 1

10:00- Feeding 2, naptime

1:00- Feeding 3, then they go outside to “play”

3:30- I pick Suzy up from Memaw’s

4:00- We are back home, Feeding 4, naptime

6-6:30’ish- Suzy gets a juice bottle (2 oz)  to help hold her over until “bedtime”

7:00- bath time and preparations for bedtime (if she can hold off until 7:30)

7:30- Feeding 5 and off to Sleepytown she goes, she is usually dead asleep by 8:00 at the latest

For those of you that read my blog posts from the early days of Suzy’s life know that she had so many problems in the bowel movement department. We tried everything that we could try with her being so young. She finally reached a point where the doctor suggested giving her juice to help the situation. She is allowed 1-2 oz, 1-2 times per day. It has helped tremendously. We no longer have those problems, thank goodness. When she went for her last check up he told me that we could start implementing cereal by spoon to her diet, so we have started doing that as well. She gets spoon fed cereal with her morning bottle and she is loving it. She also gets 2 tablespoons of cereal in her “bedtime bottle”.

Going back to work and getting back in the swing of things helped Suzy and I out tremendously. I don’t know if I could ever be a stay at home mom. I went stir crazy and it drove me nuts not having a routine/schedule for myself. I believe that I also thrive on a schedule J It is extremely hard being away from her, but it makes 3:30 so rewarding when I get to see her.

My sweet friends Betsy and Jennifer sent me flowers on my first day back to work!

Happy Suzy was still wearing newborn or 0-3 month clothes at 6 weeks.....

In Suzy’s first 14 weeks she has done a lot of things! She has been to the lake house several times, attended her first crawfish party, been to a baby shower, ventured on shopping trips, strolled many a mile, spent the night away from home at least once a week, and been in an Easter Pageant. She is already a very busy girl. 

Suzy was getting prepared for the Lake House over Spring Break in her sweet blue stripes... I will never buy blue stripes again. Even with the flowers on the collar everyone we saw said, "What a sweet baby boy".....UGH!

Suzy with Monica at Pop's birthday party.

Now Suzy is filling up her 3 month outfits :)

Thank you Uncle Casey and Melissa for the sweet little outfit!

She's all dolled up for the Easter Pageant.

Life's Adjustments

Suzy is now 6 weeks old... Time is flying by so quickly. I cannot believe that I have to go back to work Tuesday. I wish that I would "win big" and be able to stay at home with her. She is just now getting to where she has adjusted to life outside the womb. We finally got her on some formula that agrees with her tummy. The new formula seems to be helping with the gassiness and fussing. She was still having problems pooping so her pediatrician told me to start her on juice. She can have two ounces of apple or pear juice twice a day. She absolutely loves it and it is helping her bowel movements too! Wish they would have suggested that "fix" a long time ago. In the past 6 weeks she has been on 5 different formulas and tons of gas drops. We don't even have to use the gas drops anymore!!

Fun Facts about Suzy at 42 days old:

* She sleeps from about eleven every night to approximately five in the morning

* She loves to have "belly time"

* She is starting to hold her head up and look around at lights

* She drinks 5 oz every 3 hours

* She has the hiccups at least 5 times a day :)

* She loves to sleep on mine and Scott's chest

* The sound machine/projector is her favorite bedtime trinket

* Her best friends are Easten Mahan and Veazy Williams

* She likes her swing at Memaw's house ALL THE TIME, and ours at home SOMETIMES

* She has been on breast milk, Enfamil Newborn, Similac Alementum, Similac Advance, and most recently Similac Sensitive

* She likes everything about bath time except getting her hair washed

* She is now wearing some of her 0-3 month clothes

* Last week she weighed 9 lb, 7 oz (she gained 3lb, 2 oz in 3 weeks!!!!)

* We have tried every pacifier in Wal Mart and Target and she isn't a fan of any of them

Suzy loves the hippo that her Daddy got her!

Such a happy girl!

Suzy's first dinner date with Easten Mahan. She is 4 days older than him. You can't tell by looking at the can you?

We had to take this picture in her awesome outfit so she could be put on the list to be the "Model of the Week" for Special Daze. You will see it again!

Rebecca, Kendall, and Alison gave her these cool shade for Valentine's Day.

Suzy's First Valentine's Day!

Scott's Home Now!

I didn't just become a full time mommy the beginning of January; I also became a full time wife. Scott's company was given the Electrolux job in Memphis and they placed him there for up to a year. He has been away from home the whole time we have been married with the exception of last summer, so this news was a huge blessing. He has been home every night but 3 since Suzy was born. Having him home has been absolutely amazing, but a huge adjustment too. I went from just going and doing whatever I wanted to do, eating whatever I wanted, and tending house whenever I wanted to being confined to my house, cleaning up the kitchen after he cooks, and sharing my bathroom with him every morning. I wouldn't change any of it for anything in this world, but I have had to adjust my ways of doing things for sure. My house would stay clean all week until he came home on the weekends and now I can clean it and he has drug something else out to dirty it back up. I am just thankful that he is the cook around here. If I had to cook we would be eating Poppyseed Chicken and Chicken Rotel every night since those are the only 2 things that I can actually cook well. Scott has been such a huge help with Suzy. I don't know how I would have made it without his help. Since he has been working I have been taking 90% of the night time feedings and diaper changes, but when he gets home every night I do have a couple hours of me time. I start back working Tuesday, so he will has agreed to help me with "night duty" starting tomorrow night. I cannot believe that I am going back to work. It seems like I just had her a week ago. I just hope and pray that I have enough energy to function at work!